PMDD crud

This entire last month, I reverted back to old coping and defense mechanisms. Bad, bad Stephanie.

Currently, it seems that this month’s Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD) symptoms are not as severe as last month’s.

I’m able to push myself to do things that would have been impossible for me last month.

I’m choosing to stick to natural remedies and over-the-counter supplements / “medication.”

I’m choosing healthy coping skills over the unhealthy ones.

 

PMDD / Autism Spectrum

The desire to influence the world’s treatment of adults with autism is going to remain forever.

Last night, I admitted myself into the hospital.

The symptoms of Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD) became too much for me to handle on my own.

Before I’m able to do the work of creating change for those on the autism spectrum, I should take time to treat PMDD. Don’t you think?

PMDD.

SYMPTOMS WORSEN 5-7 DAYS BEFORE MENSTRUATION?  ✔

DURING THE WEEK BEFORE YOUR PERIOD, DO YOU FEEL SHAKY, ANGRY, AND IRRITABLE BEYOND REASON? ✔

DURING YOUR PMS WEEK, DO YOU FEEL A DEPRESSION COME OVER YOU THAT AFFECTS YOUR ABILITY TO FUNCTION NORMALLY? ✔

DO YOUR SYMPTOMS TYPICALLY GET BETTER ONCE YOUR PERIOD BEGINS? ✔

DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU LOSE CONTROL OF YOUR EMOTIONS IN STRESSFUL SITUATIONS DURING THE WEEK BEFORE MENSTRUATION OR DURING OVULATION? ✔

DO YOU CRY OR WEEP UNCONTROLLABLY DURING HIGH TIMES OF HORMONAL ACTIVITY? ✔

WHICH OF THE FOLLOWING PMDD SYMPTOMS DO YOU EXPERIENCE THE WEEK BEFORE YOUR PERIOD?

  • ANXIETY ✔
  • HEADACHES ✔
  • DEPRESSION ✔
  • MANIA/HYPER-MANIA
  • LETHARGY/EXHAUSTION ✔
  • DIZZINESS ✔
  • PAINFUL BLOATING
  • INTENSE BACK PAIN
  • TENSE MUSCLES AND JOINTS ✔
  • RACING THOUGHTS
  • IRRATIONAL THOUGHTS AND FEARS ✔

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN PUBLIC AND LOST YOUR TEMPER OUTRAGEOUSLY DURING A HORMONAL TIME OF THE MONTH? ✔

DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE A DIFFERENT PERSON THE WEEK BEFORE YOUR PERIOD? ✔

Do this quiz for yourself, here: PMDD Girl Quiz

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Autism. Facilities, Programs, Group Homes.

In the last 3 years, since my autism spectrum diagnosis, I have researched my options.

There are many group homes, facilities, and programs for those on the autism spectrum.

100% of them that I have found require something (or all) on this list:

  • $3,000+ / month, tuition.
  • SSI approval.
  • Medicaid enrollment.

Of course, these homes and programs cannot go on, without funding.

 

My frustration stems from the fact that there are so many adults with autism that cannot afford $3k / month tuition. Their parents can’t afford that, either. 

They have not been approved for SSI. 

They find themselves unable to maintain employment. 

 

So, here’s a snapshot of this for you:

You’re on a strange planet (Earth). No guidebook was issued, so you’re navigating this planet and its customs mostly on your own. Maybe your family helps. Maybe they’re no help, at all.   Apparently, to survive, you must find a source of income (or up and decide to become a vagabond!). Over and over, you find that your lack of understanding of human behavior has stolen your ability to function in the way that is necessary.

You have little money. You have few (if any) friends.

You find out that humans have built small school-type structures for your kind.

You must pay $3k +/ month. That’s the tuition, unless a governing entity approves you for financial assistance in moving through life on this planet. The approval for this financial assistance is (understandably) difficult to acquire.

You sit, you eat what food you have, and you wonder what your next attempt of survival will look like.

Do this for years and then come to the conclusion that you may be your species’ only hope (<hyperbole>) for acquiring autistic-indigent care, support, etc.

There I am. Please join me. I cannot do this alone.

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Support for Adults with Autism, project

I remember, during my teenage years, having a hope that someday I would be apart of having some kind of group home.

 

  • Moving toward my dream of having a group home for adults with autism is a bit exciting and a bit scary.
  • The project currently has two projectors. (Persons projecting the project.) 🙂
  • Join us:Facebook, Tour de Autism, Twitter, Tour de Autism
  • Here’s a bit of my story:

At the age of 28, I was diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum.

Previous to my diagnosis, psychiatrists and (most) therapists were not sure how to help me.

Even after my diagnosis (3 years ago), I have yet to meet very many professionals who truly understand autism.

“You can’t have autism. You can hold a conversation.” – a professional whose young son was on the autism spectrum.

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Here’s the issue with that:    Autism is on a spectrum.

Spectrum (defined): “used to classify something or suggest that it can be classified in terms of its position on a scale between two extreme or opposite points.”

To that point, no two people who are on the autism spectrum are alike.

Let us add to that, females present autism differently than males.

An additional note: people who were not diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum until after reaching adulthood have had years of practice of trying to be what we felt expected to be.

When we tell you that we’re “high functioning,” please do not forget that high functioning does not mean that we don’t ever have periods of lower functioning levels.

We have our strengths and weaknesses, like all people.

We have our good and our bad days, like all people.

If we seem to be quite high functioning one day, we may appear lower functioning in the days to come – while our mental energy reserves are being replenished.

True to [my] form, I have gone on a tangent.

I hope this blog post brings hope, awareness, and acceptance.